Stuck

Hello everyone! I'm new to the board. I'm an adult and I live in Texas. I was never diagnosed as a child as being on the spectrum, and now I don't have insurance so I'm not sure what to do. I've held and lost 6 jobs within the past year, including the one I was just fired from on Monday. The types of jobs I've had read like the list of exactly what jobs people with Asperger's will find difficulty in (reception, cashier, customer service). I suffer in most of the DSM ways. Trouble is I don't have the training to work in what I'm interested in (commercial art). Everything is and always has been so chaotic I can't get my efforts consistently aligned to change things. If I don't have a strong interest in something I just can't do it without crying or screaming or shutting down. Without a diagnosis it seems there's no services I qualify for, and I don't have friends who can help with the 'hidden job market' or advise me. Sometimes I feel like a state-of-the-art person facsimile; I pass for awhile but the program always shuts down to disasterous results in every area of life. I just wanted to tell someone and see if anyone out there can give me hope and ideas on steps I can take. This seems to elude my intellect. Thank you all!